After all of this talk about autobiographical performance and needing to include yourself in your performance, I began to misunderstand the concept. I believed that I needed to talk about deep emotional issues to be able to pull off a solo performance and I started thinking of different ways that i could represent my own psychological flaws. I was thinking of ideas based around performance art and thinking of representing the lack of social identity that I feel and the anxiety that has grown in me through the years. My idea was if it is true and emotional then it will effect the audience and therefore be a compelling performance.

However as I started looking at more and more solo performances I realised that the ones I enjoyed the most were the more implicit performances that incorporated story and metaphor to convey reason. Then thinking back to my ideas of opening up to an audience in a way that is very unlike me, I decided that it was the wrong thing to do. I do not talk about my deeper feelings so it would make no sense to speak of them now as this is not autobiographical in my opinion. That would be playing a character that speaks about my issues which would overwhelm audiences and could make them feel more uncomfortable that entertained or emotionally affected.

I need to stop thinking about deep emotional issues residing within me and start thinking about who I am and what a performance means to me.

STOP THINKING ABOUT WHAT WILL GET GOOD GRADES AND START THINKING BACK TO WHY YOU LOVE PERFORMING!!!!!