Noel Carroll wrote this about Amy Taubin as a solo performer:

“The value of her work, of course, does not rely on the metaphysical truth or falsity of her view of the self but rather on the fact that she is able to manipulate every dimension of her performances so that the solos express the feelings of distance, tension, incompleteness and absence that the self experiences in trying to define itself” (Carroll, 1979)

Although the ideas for my performance are very different than that of Amy Taubin’s, This quote put my feelings into words. The more I think about the representation of myself, the more I feel lost as to who I actually am. To take a step back and truly see yourself for what you are is a very difficult task and is a very lonely task. As I step out of myself and look at what I am and what I am doing, I feel a sense of loss. Have a lost myself and everything that I feel defines me by taking it apart. I believe some things are supposed to stay in the subconscious to prevent one from over thinking ones identity.

Luckily I am a man that enjoys my own company at times and these long meditative sessions of thinking and exploring my own mind creates time for me to realise the different aspects and angles to the different stories that I plan on sharing with my audience. As I think through these stories more and more, I am noticing a certain amount off tragedy that they hold. Of course tragedy is only tragedy because of the way the information is presented.

Work Cited

Carroll, Noel (1979) Amy Taubin: The Solo Self, The Drama Review: TDR Vol.23 No.1 Autoperformance Issue pp.51-58, USA: MIT Press